2010, already two months in!

Well, it's certainly been a long time since I posted anything on here.
I guess I haven't really felt like documenting my life lately.
Things have been quite up and down but I'm determined not to let things get as bad as last year.

I've finally started a Japanese class, although right now I'm feeling a little apprehensive about it.
It's been a long time since I sat in a class surrounded by complete strangers and I didn't feel comfortable about it at all, but I know it's something I need to stick at.
I guess it was just a little reminder of how difficult it was to make friends when I started college for the first time, and how unhappy it made me.
I've never been one for making friends easily, especially when it's a group of people I wouldn't usually associate with for whatever reason.
I'm sure I'll settle in eventually, it'll just take me a while.

I've had to stop spending so much because I figured it's about time I start saving.
So, no more cute stationery or random 'kawaii' items from Japan.
Of course, my penpalling and parcel sending won't stop because it's something I really enjoy.
It makes me feel quite content at times.
It's certainly difficult to resist shopping, especially when some weeks it feels like the only thing that'll make me happy.
I guess it's quite fortunate that there are so few decent shops in this town, but that also means I find myself getting very bored on my days off work.
There's so little to do here, and absolutely nothing that doesn't involve spending money!
Still, I have things that can keep me occupied to an extent...sewing, drawing, studying but sometimes, I just need to get out of the house.
These days, I tend to just head into town alone because at least I'm getting some air.
I can't bare being stuck indoors, alone!

After 24 years, I've finally began learning to cook.
I've made cookies, cakes, lasagne, spaghetti and meatballs and omelette.
Nothing incredibly complicated of course, but still pretty amazing for 'can't cook, won't cook' me.
My latest creation, with the help of my friend, Aaron, was chocolate cupcakes with melted chocolate inside.
Served warm, we decided to eat them with icecream.
Absolutely delicious!

We also gave Eton mess a go, such a bizarre name, but my god it was amazing!
I think I'll be making that again. So simple, yet so delicious.

Aaron had a little Japanese okashi set, which involves making up some pink and white icing type stuff and squeezing it into mini icecream cones.
It was pretty fun, but I have to admit it tasted a little strange!

and how could I resist posting a photo of Aaron's sisters pug, Dolce.
Adorable!
So, I've got a new dream but I think it's going to be a difficult one to realise.
I've had it in my head for a while, but recently it's become stronger....
I want to be a tattooist!
I'm not entirely sure how to go about doing this, other than an apprenticeship, but I hear this are very hard to come by.
I figure, all I can do for now is practice drawing and get a portfolio together.
I started off well, with plenty of ambition and motivation but as usual I find it hard to keep it going.
I become disheartened too easily.
Of course, I'll draw again soon but with this on top of studying and my need for regular 'chill out' time just to calm down after a crap day at work, I guess it'll take longer to get a portfolio together than I'd originally imagined.

Still, I guess I've got plenty of hopes and dreams right now and certainly more drive than I had last year.
I just hope this time, maybe one of my dreams can come true.

Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down,
And they didn't even put up a fight,
They didn't even make up a sound.

I found a way to let you in,
But I never really had a doubt.
Standing in the light of your halo,
I got my angel now.

It's like I've been awakened.
Every rule I had you breakin'.
It's the risk that I'm takin'.
I ain't never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere I'm looking now,
I'm surrounded by your embrace.
Baby I can see your halo.
You know you're my saving grace.

You're everything I need and more,
It's written all over your face.
Baby I can feel your halo,
Pray it won't fade away.

I can feel your halo halo halo.

Hit me like a ray of sun,
Burning through my darkest night.
You're the only one that I want.
Think I'm addicted to your light.

I swore I'd never fall again,
But this don't even feel like falling!
Gravity can't forget,
To pull me back to the ground again.

Feels like I've been awakened.
Every rule I had you breakin'.
The risk that I'm takin'.
I'm never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere I'm looking now,
I'm surrounded by your embrace.
Baby I can see your halo.
You know you're my saving grace.

You're everything I need and more,
It's written all over your face.
Baby I can feel your halo,
Pray it won't fade away.