pessimism

A tendency to stress the negative or unfavourable or to take the gloomiest possible view.

When something positive happens to me, maybe I won't be such a pessimist!

I never wanted to say this.
You never wanted to stay, well did you?
I put my faith in you, so much faith
and then you just threw it away.

chelsea smile

I may look happy but honestly dear, the only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear!

Having time off work is nice, but it would be better if I had someone to spend it with.
I'm so tired of having no one, but it's not going to change unless I get out of here.
Of course, I'm not going to get out of here, so I'll continue being alone!

it was written in blood

Dear (anonymous).
It's been five months since we met, four months since you left and two weeks since we talked.
You should know, now I can hardly bear to think of you.
Yours, but not forever,
(anonymous).

tell me so

The last time you smiled,

well it's been quite a while,
and you're not sure what you smiled for
and the first time you lied,
well I felt like I died,
now it just feels like every other night.

So, I'd say today's weather is quintessentially British!

This morning, as I walked in to town, I felt myself burning up.
As I wandered around some shops, I could see it clouding over.
Then, when I eventually headed home, it started to pour with rain.
Now I'm back and the sun is out again!

I needed to cheer myself up today, so saving was put temporarily on hold.
Luckily, there's a few mid season sales so I managed to buy some underwear and shoes for less than £20!
There was plenty more I wanted, but it seemed everything I picked up was a size too big or a size too small.
I really wanted to eat Thai noodles for lunch and decided I could face going in alone...
only to find out, they close on Mondays!
So, I bought a snack pack of sushi from Marks and Spencers.
I have to say, surprisingly it wasn't as nice as sushi from Tesco or Sainsburys!
Still, it was good and I felt a little better after eating it.

Now, I have nothing particular to do for the remainder of my time off.
I'm getting pretty tired of this lack of activity.
The only excitement in my life is in my dreams...
it's about time reality improved before I decide not to bother waking up again.


*update*
On a much lighter note, today I had a new arrival to my Japanese toy collection.

A yurakoro, or manekineko.
He mews, chimes and speaks Japanese!
"いいことあるにゃん！"
かわいいですね？？

do you want the truth or something beautiful?

Sunday April 18th.
Walking along the seafront with my camera, I could almost understand why people holiday in Great Yarmouth.
This time of year, everything looks far more beautiful.


However, no amount of sunshine can detract from the fact that this town is completely backwards.
I wish I could leave.

the world's a better place when it's upside down

It's Good Friday, meaning a day off work. Lovely!
As I've been exhausted lately, I decided a lay in and a little baking would be sufficient for today.
Of course, usually I hate to be stuck at home all day.
However, despite a few hiccups, baking was nice.
I made chocolate chip cupcakes with melted chocolate on top and some vanilla biscuits.
Unfortunately, the biscuits aren't particularly attractive but they taste pretty good.
The cakes are delicious!
Sadly, I have to work tomorrow and I expect it to be ridiculously busy.
For some reason which is far beyond me, people seem to be staying in this awful town over Easter.
So, the shop will be filled with delightful children and the sound of eloquent Northern accents..
God, help me!

cookie bunny

A cookie loving bunny??
He should belong to me!

Thanks for putting a smile on my face little fella ;D